Summer
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I've been enjoying this summer, though it has barely started for me.  The sun took a really long time to come out and I've been really busy working and a lot of plans are made for the times when I'm working. I don't have a job exactly but I've been having side walk sale kind of things.  I have a booth in an antique shop where I sell jewelry and antiques.  It brings in a couple hundred a month and then for the side walk sales area about 100-200$ for a day of work. Its kind of worth it.

Christopher and I are doing good.  I started birth control again about a month ago, I've been on it for a year but I ran out and went without for 2 months.  Anyways, I started again a month ago and I've felt like a crazy bitch since I started.  I'm sure it also has something to do with me not having any friends in Salem and Christopher knowing everyone in this town, but it sucks to get left out.  I just have to work when I have the chance, we all need money.

School is starting again soon, I still need t get my FAFSA in or else I'm going to be owing a shit ton of money to the school.  School is going good though, last term I got 3 A's and 1 B.  So far so good.

My mom really wants me to move out, and so do I but there aren't a lot of places hiring in this town so its hard to be stable.  Christopher is joining the Navy.  I'm really happy for him, I know he will love learning and traveling and getting paid enough that its worth it, but I just don't know if I can go 4 years without him.  We talking about getting married before he left so I can move in with him, but I'm not sure if he is serious or if I want to do that. 

We will have to figure all these things out in time.  I've been trying to create a lot.  I'll post some pictures

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 I've been doing pretty good if anyone is still interested. If not, whatever. I'm enrolled in school, and I start my second term tomorrow! Sweet! Im fucking excited because Im taking pottery and i's going to be sooooo great for me. Last term I took a drawing class and I failed it, there were just too many assignments, and I only kinda like drawing, now like a shit ton, so I failed. I think Pottery will be different because I LOVE it and I will spend a lot of time doing it. Plus if I really need to, I can throw at my house too since I have a wheel.

Tyler and I have been through since the summer, he was a dusch bag and I dont see or talk to him anymore. Sometimes I go to my mom's work and he is there working adn he acts all happy to see me and shit and I ignore him mostly. What an odd human being.

As for Ricky, I did go down to Vegas and I did see him, along with some other people. I stayed at my dads hosue and Ricky worked most of the time. He wasn;t doing as good as I thought he had been. He was smoking and he was talking about starting to grow, and starting to sell. He seemed more immature and it really made me sad becausd I thought he was finally growing up. I obviously smoked with him when I saw him, because thats what he wanted to do. When I was high around him, I just realized I didint like him, and I didn't want to be around him. It was probably partly because I was high but also the bad energies he was giving off as an immature stoner. I barely saw him so I couldn't really talk with him, but when I got back to Salem, I told him I couldnt continue things because they werent where they needed to be. He was crushed, but I believe if he honestly wanted it to work out, he would have picked his act up a bit at least while I was there.

After coming back from Las Vegas, I started hanging out with this guy Christopher a lot. His best friends had just moved and I was still alone a lot living in Salem. So, I'd go over there and we would watch a movie and he would cook for me. We painted his kitchen and would hang out wiht other friends too. He started riding his bike over to my house a lot. He came over one night and we watched its sunny and then drank wine and talked about life and the past and things we watned. I suddently got the urge to kiss him, out of no where, we had been hanging out for weeks but I was never attracted to him, until that ngiht. We have been drinking wine and it being 2am, he asked to stay the night. I said yes, the road he has to go down to get to my house isn't lighted and its 45mph so I didnt want anything bad to happen. He stayed the night with me, in my bed, and held onto me all night. He was so warm and it was so nice in my house with the heater not on. I woke up a couple times in the night, almost freaked out because I wasnt used to anyone holding me at night. In the morning, he was still holding on, and it was an amazing feeling.

We hung out more at school and we went out more and he stayed the night more and I stayed the night at his house more. After a couple weeks he told me he wanted me to be his girlfriend. I told him no, I didnt want to be in a relationship, but not even a couple days later we decided to wanted to be "dating". I am so very happy Christopher came into my life. He is the best thing that could happen to me, in my life right now, and just in general. We have this crazy chemistry, and we are both on the same page with a lot of things. He is very open minded, and just not an idiot about things. He is a very intelligent and a very strong man. I love him so very much and I feel like all my good karma is finally coming back to me, and we are both getting what we deserve.

He is asleep in my bed right now, so Im going to get off the computer and go make him some breakfast and coffee. Then I need to get some tings done today before I start school tomorrow. I need to think about some books I need to buy and I need to do some stuff for my financial aid.

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I've been depressed lately.  That sucks.
I kind of want to smoke, but i want to be able to pass a drug test for some crazy reason.  There are no drug tests coming up, but what if I get a job or something crazy happens, that wont? 

My boyfriend sucks balls.  My mom called him yesterday and he said "Is katelyn holding a gun up to your head making you call me to see what I'm doing?"  WTF is that?  He ha been really sick since thurday, today is tuesday.  Friday he went out to the lake with his friends, asked if he could bring my dog.  Then didnt, and didnt invite me to go.  Then Saturday he went to Portland to see his mom and go shopping at Ikea.  he didnt invite me, though I told him i wanted to go and that I wanted to go to Ikea as well.  He said maybe another time.  Sunday he got home, and put the furniture together with his parents.  I asked if I could help and he said he would just call me later.  He showed up at my house at 10 pm and went straight to bed.  Yesterday he woke up and left, saying he was busy.  I went to my moms work and found him there helping her with odds and ends.  Too busy?  Then he went home, i asked if I could come take care of him and he said no, his mom is coming down from Portland to help him install an AC in his house.  After she left I asked if I could come over and bring him dinner, he said he aleady ate and he is going to sleep.  I asked him if he wanted to see me and he said, "I would advise you didnt."  So I stayed home.  Thats when my mo called him, I didnt tell her to, but she knew he was 'sick'.  I asked him if he would just stay home and get better, because thats the only way he is going to get better.  He said he would.  Then last night he told me he had to get up at 5am to go work in reedsport, about 3 hours from here, to go work with his dad until friday or saturday.  Then Im moving, and the day after I move, he is going to go work at a fair in northern oregon.  

He obviously doesnt want a girlfriend.  I understand he is stressed out with work, but he is making o much money at the fairs he doesnt need to go work with his dad.  He said he wasnt going to see him until the step mom left, and here he is, going down there to do the exact thing he said he wouldnt.

So I want to break up with him.  We have been together for a couple months, and everyone that I talk to about it just sayd "Fuck him, Katelyn!  You deserve better than that, he isnt into you, move on"  So I decided Im going to go to his house, get all my stuff, and leave his key there.  I dont think I'll talk to him the rest of the time he is in Reedsport, and just go on with my life.  Because he is holding me back, not phycially or anything, but I cant fucking THINK. I cant sleep at night because Im freaking out in my head over and over.  It would make a lot of sense if he was seeing someone.  i wish he was god damn it.  I hate men.  

I still talk to Ricky a lot, he misses me and i miss him.  We spent the last month together that I had in Vegas.  He would take me out and just be with me, so I wasn't alone all the time.  Because if he wasn't with me, I was usually alone.  I want to go visit Las Vegas soon, my dad said he would pay for half the ticket, and Ricky said he would pay for the other half.  I do love him.  And I know he has straightened up a lot.  He quit smoking weed, he is even getting enrolled in school, Im so proud of him.  I know he will get somewhere, I just wish he could do it for himself and everything. 

Im going to try and do something with myself today.  Hopefully Ill start writing a lot more.

Hello!!
katelynkosek
I'm living in Oregon now =) Im loving it here!  Im selling jewelry and stuff on etsy, and in a couple antique shops here.

Im dating a guy  =)  His name is tyler.  He is wonderful. 
I dont get on here very much, Im not sure what I should say so much.
I miss livejournal.  If anyone has a livejournal, they should follow me.

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and my jewelry shop

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Do you remember when I surprised you? On the train, coming to Vegas, and I told you I was hanging out with Betty. And it was so hard to keep it from you. And as soon as I got off the bus in Las Vegas you were the first place I went. You were at Angel park with your friend, and I was texting him the whole time, making sure you guys stayed because I didnt want to be drive around town looking for you all day, I would have though. And you were walking up the street, and I was on the opposite end. I couldnt wait any longer and I started running. And you still didnt notice. And I got up real close to you and the look on your face. And I didnt stop running and I jumped on you, and I dont know how you didnt fall down. And your friend left, because he knew we just wanted to see eachother. And it was the first time I had seen you in almost 9 months. And you were so blown away, and we just held eachother. And I didnt kiss you but I wanted to, and I should have. But we walked back to the car holding hands and I never wanted that to end. But it did, because thats not how things are anymore. Its not that you arent that person anymore, you are, yeah you changed a little, you didnt respect me as much, but I changed. I changed a lot. And you werent going with me. You were satisfied where you were, and I wasnt. I hope you are satisfied now, because I know I am.

Hair!
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Look how long my hair is getting!! Its wonderful!

Oh! And I dyed it Mahogany.


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I have to sleep right now. Im redecorating my room. I have work at 9am-7pm tomorrow. =( BOO!

Large photo post tomorrow.

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yeah, not good.

I'm ready to do what I want. Not do what I want that's also convenient to you. Because that's not a lot.

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